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July 2, 2009

There will be only one entry everyday from here to 100. I’m proud of this blog. Too bad I already spoke about the worth of this blog a few entries ago. BTW… my blog is worth $146 USD, interesting? I’m not famous, so that is bound to happen. Well… I’m in the mood to watch Avatar again and then be able to determine which style of Kung Fu I will be willing to commit to. Most likely Northern Shaolin style. This isn’t because I like the firebenders in Avatar, I actually like all the elements (I do favor water though). I’d do Tai Chi, but the movements are slow. Actually, I’ll do both if the money permits. I do have a hard time relaxing. Fire offsets water… Jennyta de agua? |lol|. Yeah… I wonder if I can get her into some sort of martial arts. She won’t necesarily have to go to the gym if that’s the case.

Off to Avatar again? I think so.

I’m hungry… need more strawberry milkshake :).


++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan

By2 = ∞


July 1, 2009

I need to follow my own advisory.

From my “Toca” entry:
I know I’m not the only one who is getting frustrated with myself.

I relaxed over the last 12 or so hours… I guess I’m good now. I worry a bit too much… even if there is nothing to worry about.

Now… less than 30 seconds ago… I found out that I lost five pounds this summer. I’m regressing |lol|. I just want to be a good 165. Only 27 pounds to go… but I’m not eating right. I honestly had a bowl of Corn Flakes, a few chocolate chip cookies, two pieces of chicken, one boiled dumpling, and not even a scoop of rice. My appetite really isn’t there. Jay is going to kick my ass for not eating… I have told her that I have been eating regularly (which I have) and today it collapsed. My anxiety got the best of me. I don’t feel hungry either. I am in fact loading on my calcium… I’m a growing boy |lol|. I’m looking at Iverson’s body prototype at the moment. I’m afraid of slowing my metabolism too much. Even though, I’m not as fast as Iverson, I know my quickness will be unmatched. I already see a discrepancy… my calves are huge and actually bigger than Iverson’s |lol|. I wonder how that will look. I guess I’m going o have his upper body. Happy Birthday L.

++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan

By2 = ∞

Lo siento… again

May 18, 2009
I’ve been abandoning this blog like I left it to die all alone in a car that’s 120 degrees inside. That’s child neglect. I’m yet to blog about the next rubberband and I am happey to announce that I have acquired a new one. A royal blue “Hawks Spirit” rubberband. An ironic one.
Prom was only what it was because of Senora Quince Corazones lloll. She is a woman of 15 hearts and I feel like 11 of them belong to me. That’s my first time saying that, and I’m sure she gets what I mean. She wore her Quince ring to the prom too… DAMN… the signs are everywhere. I’m not the real superstitious type, but where there are signs and symbols everywhere… it freaks me out, and this time it is in a good way.
I back in time go gotta now right?
I like scrambling my words, well done<<<
I’m up for a serious game of Parcheesi, otherwise known as Ludi in the Caribbean area
I wonder why my dad shows me cool things like skipping rocks and playing Ludi… My mom is so boring. Matter aof fact, I should blog about my family. That would be funny. Right now, I’m just waiting for a little something to appear at the bottom right of my screen for AIM saying, “Jay is now available”.

:Eats a poison berry:

++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan


May 3, 2009
The finest comic book character ever. Damn.
Ever since I was little, and I watched X-Men, my eyes would always fall on her. I don’t know if it’s the white hair or her fine body… Always been attracted to Rogue. There can’t be anyone else finer than Rogue. I watched a lot of shows when I was little. They were on Fox Kids… <—- (What happened to you???). This is the best version of Rogue though, I'm not really feeling all the remakes of her. She's my X-Woman. Never have I looked at Emma Frost and thought the same thoughts that I do when I see Rogue. Look how fine she is Toxin!!!!! Jay, I'd go crazy if i saw white streaks in your hair like Rogue's… Gambit is a bitch btw… always trying to take my X-Woman.
When I go to Islands of Adventure, I want my picture with Rogue. Storm can go start a rainstorm somewhere… Rogue will just touch me and gain my psychological identity… Damn. I’ll make sure she touches me forever.

Marvel Universe

Real Name
Anna Marie (full name unrevealed)

Anna Raven, Doctor Kellogg, Mutate #9602, Irene Adler, Miss Smith


Adventurer, former mechanic, waitress, terrorist


Place of Birth
Caldecott County, Mississippi

Known Relatives
Owen (father), Priscilla (mother), Carrie (aunt), Raven Darkhölme (Mystique, foster mother), Irene Adler (Destiny, foster mother), Kurt Wagner (Nightcrawler, foster brother),Graydon Creed (foster brother, deceased)

Group Affiliation
X-Men, formerly X.S.E, X-Treme X-Men,Brotherhood of Evil Mutants

College-level courses at Xavier’s School, partial law degree


120 lbs.


Brown with white streak

Rogue is a mutant who formerly possessed the ability to absorb the memories, abilities, personality, and outward physical characteristics of other beings through skin-to-skin contact. Such transfers lasted for 60 times longer than the contact time, with extended contact resulting in the possibility of permanent absorption. No upper limit had been determined for the number of beings Rogue could simultaneously imprint. Upon absorbing another’s memories, Rogue also gained any associated emotional responses. Rogue was typically able to control such emotions, however absorbing psyches more powerful than her own resulted in Rogue’s psyche being supplanted.After permanently absorbing the powers of Ms. Marvel, Rogue possessed an amalgamated mutant human/alien Kree physiology that granted her a degree of immunity to poisons, and a virtually indestructible body. Rogue also possessed Ms. Marvel’s above normal reflexes and psychic “seventh sense” that enabled her to subconsciously anticipate an opponent’s moves. Whilst Rogue possessed Ms. Marvel’s psyche, her “double” consciousness made her resistant to telepathic probes from even the most powerful mind readers. She also gained Ms. Marvel’s incredible strength, and supersonic flight.After absorbing the powers of an alien Skrull, Rogue began to spontaneously reactivate previously absorbed abilities. Rogue could also tap into the residual psychic energy of those she had imprinted to determine their status and to relive past events from their perspective. Recently, Rogue has seemingly permanently absorbed the fire-based powers of Sunfire (Shiro Yoshida).

Rogue could formerly draw upon the combat and espionage training of Carol Danvers by granting control of her body to her alternate personality, a duplicate of Danvers’. Rogue can also speak fluent French.



First Appearance
Avengers Annual #10 (1981)

Rogue #2 (2004), Uncanny X-Men #185 (1984), Cable #87 (2001), Classic X-Men #44 (1990)

Significant Issues
Began criminal activities (Marvel Fanfare #60, 1992); permanently absorbed Ms. Marvel’s powers (Marvel Super-Heroes #11, 1992); first encountered Avengers (Avengers Annual #10, 1981); first encountered X-Men (Uncanny X-Men #158, 1982); joined X-Men (Uncanny X-Men #171, 1983); Danvers’ psyche first assumed control (Uncanny X-Men #182, 1984); separated from Danvers’ psyche (Uncanny X-Men #269, 1990); brief romance with Magneto (Uncanny X-Men #274-275, 1991); began romance with Gambit (X-Men #4, 1992); made peace with Cody (Rogue #4, 1995); first kissed Gambit (X-Men #41, 1995); learned of Gambit’s past, abandoned him in Antarctica (Uncanny X-Men #350-351, 1997-1998); imprinted Skrull (X-Men #107, 2000); joined X-Treme X-Men (X-Men #109, 2001); first able to control past imprints (X-Treme X-Men #13, 2002); lost powers (X-Treme X-Men #17-18, 2002); rejoined X-Men (X-Treme X-Men #46, 2004); first returned home, learned of mother’s fate (Rogue #1-6, 2004)

Courtesy of Marvel
Psylocke comes next though…


++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan


May 2, 2009

It’s over. Jay has elevated her status above ALL seniors. How many highschool seniors have an Associate’s Degree???? (My sister is 21 and she STILL dont have hers)

I’m so proud of my _____. <—- (You put whatever yuou want me to call you Jay)

I’m proud to say that she’s going to be a Seminole. I’ll put my bias aside for that statement. In addition, I have someone to add to the red carpet… in place of Michelle. Belly will be up… but I had another name for her (forgot it). Most likely going to be a Central American delicacy lloll.

Should I have to induct her to the red carpet like I did everyone else?

Jay and I had a moment (Not going to tell how it went down) lloll.

She’s the reason for the bright heart on the top of the page. I can’t neglect her, I can’t forget her, (Scrumptious Ass) and I can’t help but miss her in this coming year. I’ll be focused on ball and school and Jay next year. This year I was mainly on Jay and adaptation. I’m gonna be on some Toxin type shit<—– He's pretty damn focused.


++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan

BTW… Anabelle will be further known as… Enchilada <—- LLOLL

Day New Mont

May 1, 2009
It’s complete… the beat I mean.
Will I release it? no. Reason being that this was a thing between me and Jay… She challenged me and I responded well. It’s my best beat and probably worthy of some real rapper to get on. I wouln’t say that for the other productions. This one is REAL good. I kid you not. No exagerration. I took my time with this one.
Name: By and By/Neverletgo
It’s a two-part song. 1st half would be rappin’… a wicked dose of lyricism. This slides right into “Neverletgo”, where I sing. Suicide? Maybe. I have no business singing, right? We’ll see.
I’m sorry you can’t hear it :p.
But you can listen to a song I produced/wrote/recorded in 9th grade:
Listen to the song called “Cheap” (I was able to hit high notes) Like it?

:Extreme speed:

++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan

Native Americans vs. Armored Noblemen

April 19, 2009
Jay (5:12:15 PM): hey babe
UNO Nerd 001 (5:16:54 PM): hi my love
Jay (5:17:00 PM): :)
UNO Nerd 001 (5:17:02 PM): how u feelin this afternoon :)
Jay (5:17:18 PM): im very tired babe here at school but im staying calm
Jay (5:17:23 PM): not stressing..
Jay (5:17:25 PM): just tired..
UNO Nerd 001 (5:17:35 PM): good
Jay (5:17:46 PM): how you doing?
UNO Nerd 001 (5:19:10 PM): im doin fine… watchin super bowl ads 2 let go
Jay (5:19:17 PM): Congratulations! You have been offered admission to Florida State University through the CARE Summer Bridge Program. Please refer to the letter of acceptance mailed to you for the terms and conditions of your admission.
UNO Nerd 001 (5:21:34 PM): congratulations babe
Jay (5:21:42 PM): im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
UNO Nerd 001 (5:21:42 PM): go b the seminole u were destined to be
Jay (5:21:43 PM): happy
Jay (5:23:05 PM): im likeeeeeeee superrrrrrrrrr happy now lol
Jay (5:23:12 PM): im about to cry of joy
Jay (5:23:14 PM): :)
Jay (5:23:17 PM): :D
UNO Nerd 001 (5:23:21 PM): wow
UNO Nerd 001 (5:23:49 PM): u eva heard the world was gonna end in 2012?
Jay (5:24:16 PM): no lol
UNO Nerd 001 (5:24:29 PM): o ok
Jay (5:25:22 PM): hey let me call u
Jay signed off at 5:25:27 PM.

She has (now had) no idea that I kept this. lloll
I can only wonder how she felt when she was excepted (purposely put “except” because you have to be an exceptional student… right?). It does bring a new stress on you, but a worthy and timeless stress. A new beginning. A stress of leaving your present situation to venture out into a new and maybe brighter horizon.
I’m praying on UCF… I really am. And m33sh gotta stop acting like the school was made for her. I have way different intentions on going there than she has. Put a sock in it. Basketball and my Master’s is what I’m after…
When I was in Orlando… I never realized how beautiful the place was. I guess I was only there for Wet n’ Wild, and Universal, and Islands of Adventure, etc. The city is nice ( prices are wicked rediculous though… tourist area). There is way more to do than in Miami. Besides… Tikal made a point about the 3 oh 5:
Carlo Adrian Callwood

Carnagehates Miami… I don’t know who does

Altricia Wilson
Tikal at 9:43pm April 18
its a love/hate relationship for me
Carlo Adrian Callwood
Carnage at 9:51pm April 18
What you hate about it?
Altricia Wilson
Tikal at 10:18pm April 18
i dunno, some of the ppl. we are the most aggressive drivers in the nation… so the ppl here are unnecessarily hostile to one another. no manners, i encounter rude people everyday…i dunno. i mean, you find these ppl everywhere but jeez down here its like 24/7. when i go to northern states the ppl are so polite its scary. im the type of person who likes to say good morning to people and say hi and be friendly…but its kinda hard to do that when the people don’t want to return the kindness. i think thats the only thing i hate about miami. i love my friends and family, the weather i history is down here….i grew up here..its home.
but i wanna move up north :]


++ Carnage ++

“I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying.” – Michael Jordan

btw people… STOP SAYING “SWAG”… the word has no meaning now… and those who claim to have it… really don’t. I got that swaggerless swag… No swag whatsoever…
and I caught Dialga, first try with the Ultra Ball… bitches.
I’m actually neutral on whether or not to legalize marijuana… It’s either you illegalize ciggarates or legalize weed… (I don’t smoke btw.. I think it’s disgusting)


March 27, 2009

How y’all doing?

What’s on Carnage’s mind?

Things that about to make it collapse…

Not a lot on my mind if you talk about variety. There is in fact a lot on my mind about school, basketball, and Jenny… in that order.

As far as school goes, I really am looking forward to the class of X graduation, because school has been ultimately ridiculous. Not to say that things would be easier in college, but I’m already trying to balance high school and college. Question: If college classes tend to be so damn easy, why is it that we working our asses of twice as hard in AP? APUSH is fucking with me, and I’m about ready to push that shit over. I’m optimistic about AP Language… mostly because I really don’t want to take ENC 1101 & 1102. I need a laptop, so I can post these things on the go… and do work.

Basketball: It’s not a sport. It’s another way of life. It’s my therapy, first love, heartbreak, and my passion. I played in the rain, cried my ass off… holding a ball, and learned so many things about life while playing. Don’t get the ball stolen, it’s your possession… protect it. Go after the ball (dream)… it won’t come to you. Get that foul (hardships)… you’ll stand up once again. I really been having this itch to play. I really want to play at a park, gym, w/e. I really am trying out for North Miami next year, I’m wasting my talents. I’m on some Psyduck shit, just like leoØpard; I know that deep down there is some unbelievable strength and ability, but it’s yet to come out. I’m really waiting for college (most likely USF or UCF) to blossom into a brilliant player. I have to chase a dream that is literally against the odds. So even, that the prototype of an NBA player is not concerned with what I’m doing now. No AAU, not training, not scouted, no honors… just a brutal past of dominating on JV… which makes no sense at all. I know I could play varsity at the freshman and sophmore level, my friends did… and not I. I really think that it was a matter of bullshit greed that my coach had to “win” games and not necessarily develop his players. Mr. Zayas could be playing Division I call right now (maybe FIU or FAU)… but the coach fucked him over. I got fucked over in the last two years that I played ball… not right at all. I admit crying during games because it wasn’t even much the pressure of the games I was in, but my own coach, my situation at the time, and a cage I couldn’t escape… was all on my shoulders. I had 20-point games, I had nice passes, gobbled rebounds… I know I’m very versatile despite my height (I think I’m pretty damn strong… and that’s without lifting weights). I need another opportunity that will (I pray) launch me into the NBA. If SAS is a burden I have to take, then so be it… God put me there for a reason, right? If I have to work 20 times harder, just to kill myself trying… at least I know that I failed chasing a dream, instead of quitting on it… a quit that I’ve just noticed I have already done subconsciously. The hiatus is over… Cletus Kassidy will bring Carnage on whoever gets in his way… now you get why I chose the name? (do your research)

Jenny: She never left my side, even though I’d say some really dumb shit. Recently, we haven’t had our time together… and I dead ass think that’s the reason her stomach is hurting her. This whole relationship, her gastritis hasn’t really bothered her. I think I’m her medicine. Apart from the food she eats, stress seems to be a cause of the stomach aches. I know she’s been stress out lately, she hasn’t been around me a lot… Parallel?


++ Carnage ++

Baby, just relax with me. I promise the pain will go away…


March 27, 2009

Play basketball in her rain.
Spaceships pierce her face.
An ozone with flaws,
I can’t reach her.

Planes grace her,
leave a snail trail
slowly across her bosom.
A blue

I love to see,
even on
cloudy days.
Gets hectic when her

Stomach thunders.
Send a wind my way,
Tornado me close to you.

Destroy my house.
I live inside you.

I’m high.


++ Carnage ++


March 23, 2009

Name: Jennifer
Pros: ♥
Cons: ♥
Talents: ♥♥♥

Approx. August 22, 2008
I saw her for the first time. So beautiful. It was lunch time and even tho she was in my AP History class, this was my first time seeing her. Her name was the only one that I could remember (the first time she told me). I thought, “DAMN!! Where have you been???”

September 16
I talked to her on AIM and for some strange reason I had the courage to tell her that I had interest in her.

September 23
We go out.

I left out a lot of things, lloll. But she is way too much to speak of. She is such a beautiful person. She’s so nice, and this is the first and only time I based my emotions off of someone’s interaction with others. She dragged me into FBLA (2nd Place in the district). She taught me how to be more open-minded. Through this open-minded-ness, I was able to talk to her. I actually got myself acquainted to people I really wouldn’t find myself interacting with. This whole experience with her has been a learning experience.

I tortured her on her birthday: September 30. We walked the whole Miami-Dade campus (and made a fool of her) before I gave her her gift. Nothing major to the eyes, but what happened that day was foreshadowing a bright future. I stuffed a burger full of mayo, ketchup, onions, and all this eww stuff that same day. People know that I like my food plain.

I didn’t tell her I loved her till December 19.

She said it first though.

We spoke a lot about what she wanted from a guy and what I want. Our wants had no clashing at all.

She been with guys that never really cared, wanted sex, etc. The usual bullshit that many guys seem to do/want. Women shouldn’t be treated as objects, I never did that to any woman. What I wanted was a woman… She knows what she wants out of life, has things at their proper priorities, she’s very mature, patient…

She likes:

  • The color blue.
  • Rock music
  • Red roses (which I proudly bought for her on V-Day… first time)
  • One Tree Hill (ew)
  • Snickers (ew)
  • Rock music
  • Eating (We can be pigs together… forever)
  • Not shopping (WTF… the first woman I ever met that said those words to me)
  • Converse (Low Chucks)
  • More… (ew she’s a Seminole)

But she loves me. It’s official.

We been through some difficult times… terrible to have someone cry in your arms. It’s a great feeling though. The tears shed into my shirt represented the trust and comfort she had with me. Felt like she didn’t think twice about doing it. I’d write more about the one I love, but this love isn’t really meant to be shared. This entry is a contradiction to that thought…

She gets unstable at times… but I’m always there to help her.
A smile is all she never asked for, but she gets it all the time.
Best womanfriend ever and the first I ever had.

Today is the 6-month anniversary of our relationship.
Love you…
By and by…


++ Carnage ++


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